kisah hari pertama percutian~

hari yg memenatkan... flight from bangalore is at 12.45am.. dlm flight duk sebelah foreigner from australia.. borak2 lah jugak.. not feeling awkward duk sebelah dia... lps solat subuh dlm flight, he even asked, "how many times do you pray in one day?" and i replied, "5 times" then, he told that he also has a teammate who is a muslim.. they even provide him prayer room there.. hmm... i slept only for 2 hours that day bcoz the whole day i had been busy packing & cleaning..

arrived in klia at 7.30am... leave the airport at around 8.15am.. then singgah kat R&R for breakfast... dlm hati tgh risau psl nak buat pasport.. tgh2 makan ninot call ckp buat passport kat presint 15 bukan kat jabatan imigresen... ooooo..hmmm.. smbg makan lagi.. lps tu pegi toilet cuci muka, gosok gigi sume.. dlm kereta on d way nk ke putrajaya siap touch-up2 muka.. dh dgn x mandi trus nk gi buat pssport.. mengantuk tu jgn ceritalah.. mmg pening kpala dh..

smpai kat tmpat buat pssort (chancery place namanya), tgk2 ramai giler org & kaunter no giliran dh tutup... owhhhh.. dh gelabah giler time tu.. dh la plan nak pass document2 sume kat farid tghari utk visa.. masa tu baru kul 9 lebih.. perghhh.. ayah yg tgh parking kereta kata tggu kat situ nnti ayah dtg try deal... ayah try slow talk dgn one of the officer, then she suggested to do passport by online.. then she'll try to help.. time tu ninot, cai, aizat tgh tggu no giliran.. so, we went to take photo kat kedai blakang & pegi cybercafe to applied it online.. bbrapa minit jek dh siap..print out the resit & met the officer back.. sptutnya mmg xleh dpt on that day tp ayah try negotiate again and she asked for a photo & passport lama and asked us to come again after 1 hour.. ok, ktorg pun lepak2 la kat alamanda..

after 1 hour dtg balik utk collect the passport.. time tu yg lain2 blum kena panggil lg no giliran.. ninot pun dh try buat online.. we are still not sure dpt x passort tu.. menunggu.. beratur... then, alhamdulillah dpt jugak.. masa tu hepi x terkata... 

next trus pegi balik kat cybercafe utk lengkapkan borg visa online.. nasib baik la dh isi most of them.. just edit kat passport details jek.. hmm, masa tu siap kena kaco dgn budak kecik yg nk guna pc tp xde duit.. hahaha.. yg kelakarnya i dont know how to response masa mula2 budak tu tegur.. nasib baik lah ade adik teman..wakakaka.. mmg kelakar.. dh la tgh stress time tu.. print out borg & xerox ape2 yg ptut.. and yeahhh i'm done!!!!! masa tu kul 12 lebih kalo x silap.. ayah ajak lunch kat restaurant dekat situ and yg best nyer dpt makan nasi kukus (setelah sekian lama nk makan, tp x sedap sgt mcm yg mkn kelantan time dulu)...

tgh2 makan ninot call ckp die dh dpt passort & nak tau sthing psl borg visa.. doc sume dlm kereta so, mmg x igt.. so, i ran to the car and masa tu terkejut tgk ade 3 org polis trafik tgh tulis saman kat kereta bersebelahan.. i was like shock.. ahahha.. ayah kena alihkan kereta.. time tu pura2 nk alihkn kereta smbil call ayah.. hahaaha.. kelakar.. ayah pun trus dtg.. luckily x kena saman.. then, me trus pegi jumpa ninot.. polis tu pandang jek..hahahaha;p after pass the doc kat ninot me pegi smbung makan balik.. dh siap makan sume i asked my parents to wait in the car while i settled things with ninot.. she settled all the doc and passed it to me.. then, i tried to contact farid to pass the doc.. so, we decided to wait kat alamanda & solat kat situ.. bile dh smpai tu ninot call sbb die trlupa nk bg passport..hahaha.. we met again.. mmg memenatkan..huh

pastu dh siap solat sume.. pegi kat kereta susun sume document.. mine, ninot, baya, hila.. pegang passport & duit org mmg menakutkan jugak.. farid janji nk dtg dlm kul 3.. so, we waited in the car sbb mmg dh x larat.. mak & ayah mmg dh penat.. dlm kul 3.20 tu someone call guna public phone tp x dgr ape2 & rs2nya mmg farid yg call... dua kali die call tp mmg x dgr ape2.. so, i decided to find him.. siap trfikir nk cari kat sume public phone.. perghhh.. amazing race kah... pastu ayah ckp kat area surau ade public phone, so me pun brlari2 lah pergi.. tgh on d way tu trnampak kelibat farid & fein dr blakang & call them...huh lega.. jumpa jugak.. pass all the docs.. rushing2 sbb nak balik bp dh.. trus bertolak pulang..

dlm kereta.. mula2 mcm x nak tido konon nk teman ayah... last2 trtido jugak dlm 1 jam jek.. bila dh trjaga xleh nk tido blk.. smpai area pagoh ayah beli pisang goreng.. so makan dlm keadaan mamai..layannn jek.. smpai rumah, turunkan sume brg.. trus pegi kat katil.. perghh bestnyer.. trtido smpai tgh maghrib.. bgn , mandi, solat, pastu tido balik.. hahahaha.. pastu bgn time ayah balik beli bihun & sate.. makan.. pstu layan citer jap & tido... hari yg sgt memenatkan...

thank you so much kpd sume yg membantu... =)

*brgolek2 kat katil with air-cond, online guna maxis broadband modem USB.. =)

*mulai esok kena survive sndiri di rumah.. dgn adik sorg~

alhamdulillah~

segala puji bagi Allah...

doa termakbul jua... 

ku panjatkan rasa syukur padaMu..

hati gembira tak terkata....

mudah2an ianya beterusan.... insyaAllah~

what a non productive weekend~

i feel so sad.. end up having fever since friday night... sudden onset.. with sleep disturbance at night.. i become so stress out.. on, saturday afternoon i thought i feel better but suddenly at night temp rised again.. i ended lying down.. sleep.. awake.. sleep.. awake..

i become so sensitive.. easily get angry, sad.. stress

there it goes my weekend.. no baking, no cooking good food.. all planned was cancelled..huh =(

uhuk..uhuk.. now i have recover from fever... but having sore throat & cough

tomorrow clinics start again..

once upon a time

hmm... what a boring a weekend.. doing nothing.. just spent my time at home... hah.. what a waste, i should have planned of something.. all the thing i do is just sit in front of my laptop... fb, twitters, gone through blogss, watch videos in youtube & memekak & tgk cerita kalo trasa nak tgk.... now my eyes are tired already...haishh =.=
baca buku mmg x nak lah kan...

ttiba jek trigt zaman sekolah dulu. i was once so naive, doesn't know about many things. been not exposed to many things. i was also a very punctual & very discpline. kalo ade anugerah full attendance mmg boleh dpt every year la kot. my routine daily life also been well scheduled. i was also being so independant, can take care of myself well and sgt x suka menyusahkan org.

now, i think i'm totally different. i have changed a lot. yeah, i think environment really change me.... A LOTTTT... being exposed to so many things..... with weak soul deep inside. i had gone through lots of things. yeah.. that's life.. it's learning all the way.... and depend on ourselves how to tackle everything. nobody is perfect..~

bicara mata...huhu~

arghhhh... penat!
td mata ku mcm proptosis.... smgtlah katakan nak study... skrg ni eyelid dh mcm ptosis skit...
nasib baik la x blepharospasm terus..
hmm.. ttiba trfikir... kalo ade hordeolum, blepharitis ke mesti x leh nak study sbb sakit... chalazion xpe lagi, sbb x sakit juz nampak x cantik lerrr..huhu

cataract, retinopathy, glaucoma...... adoi byknyerr....
ttiba rs mcm ade diplopia....eh..eh..eh...
gulp...=p

post exam review day 3

ENT a.k.a otorhinolarygology...... @ telinga, hidung & tekak....;p

patut nyer nak tido tp xpelah taip jap pastu tido......
first skali nak jerit dulu.... waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!!!!! susah kot paper td!!!!!!!!!

ok, now let's start reviewing......

• MCQ : makkkkk... aiii susahnyer soalan.... ntah brape jek yg btul. rata-rata td byk hentam2 jek.... =(
• long essay.... boleh la
• short essay: haaaa.. yg ni lg la..... part yg ni rs mcm jwb gune common sense jek kot.. suka2 hati aku jek goreng2..rhinosporidiosis?? foreign body nose??? malignant otitis externa?? yg ni format jwapan sume same jek... intro skit... clinical features... treatment.. dh bace pun sepintas lalu jek.. mane nak igt sume point... x expect la nak kuar short essay...adoiii... punyerlah pulun duk baca otosclerosis, meniere's, csom... =( hmm... retropharygeal abscess tu bbrape line jek tulis sbb x igt... ok, fine!! arghhh!! waldeyer's ring aku lukis jek... igt nak explain skit last2 tuh ttiba time out.. so bubye lahh T_T
• short notes: yg ni boleh la jawab.. 1 soalan x jawab which is osteo-meatal complex.... hai.. lemah btul anatomy nih... hmm, soalan mcq pun byk anat...

kesimpulannya... hari ni paper ENT susah..... xde pun soalan yg slalu die tanye tuh.... geram!!

esok.. last paper theory..... OPHTHAL..... byk nak kena baca laaaaaa!!! tolong lah bertahan skit!!!

ok... nak tido.. bubye =(

entry di malam hari..eh.. salahla... awal pagi..

dh kul 2.30am... x tido lagi... study ke?? study jugak td, tp x bertahan lame..last2 duk menung2 depan laptop....
ok... bosan
nak stalk org pun dh penat.. x larat. sampai dh xde ape2 yg menarik utk stalk.
oklah.. ape nak ckp eh..
hmm... nampaknye my blog ni akan ade post tiap2 hari kot sepanjang exam. sbbnyer kat sini jek lah tempat yg ade utk luahkan rasa yg terpendam di hati..cewaahhh... lagi2 time tgh hormonal imbalance nih.... mmg macam2 rasa ade.... nak marah.. nak nangis... nak ketawa.. nak senyum... nak cemburu... haishhh... susah betul... kdg2 tu asyik rs x puas hati jek.... ahhhhhh.... cthnyer, kalo x tahu psl sthing yg kite nakkkk sgt tahu rs x puas hati... then bile dh dpt tahu pulak rs x puas hati jugak.... kan ke pening tuh... =.=
so.... kena duk diam2 jek
mak kata duk diam2 lah.....shhhhhhh!!!!!
dah pi tido sana...~

p/s: org lain ade tempat nak sembang2.....

sape nak sembang2 dgn saya.......

haishhhh... sudah2 lahhhh....

tido....................tido!!!

post exam review day 2

community medicine paper 2...

yahooooo!!!! dh habis jugak paper theory commed... lega kot.... walaupun practical x habis lagi tp lega jugak..

ok... nak review skit lah psl paper td...

mcq... ok jek la.... ade byk jugak yg x tau... x igt... yg part hepatitis nyer soalan mmg x dpt nak jwb sgt sbb x baca...

essay question..........hmmm, soalan mmg menarik.. most of the questions adalah soalan tutorial time revision class... mmg doctor commed nih nak bantu student kot...

soalan long essay psl risk approach tu mmg i'm expecting it lah... x sangka pulak btul2 masuk... alhamdulillah..

pastu soalan universal precaution HIV tuh pulak mmg semangat terlebih... siap lukis2.. xde keje sgt lah kan...

yg x brape nak dpt jawab is role of ASHA worker... adeh... napelah x trbaca... padahal pagi smlm faiz siap sebut2...pastu malam td dh brape kali kot tgk page tuh.... niat nak baca pagi before exam.. tp x bace jugak... check2 balik tgk2 ade 10 roles of ASHA nih... nah.. amek!!!

come to short notes pulak... 1 soalan x jawab... haha... Net Reproduction Rate...

pastu yg soalan World Health Day.. tuh pegi goreng2 jek.... rupe2nye baru tahu it is on 7th April.. and theme for this year is Antimicrobial resistance: no action today, no action tomorrow!! hmm.. nampak sgt general knowledge kurenggg...;p

hmm.. panjang lah pulak review hari nih.... mentang2 lah esok ade break jap... exam will be continued on Thursday..yeay!! let's study!!!!

post exam review day 1

community medicine paper 1...
hmm.. nampaknyer mostly sume org happy dpt jawab dgn baik paper td.... alhamdulillah...
me.. sedikit sedih ( sikit jek... x byk pun..=.=) sbb maybe 1 question for short essay i had answered totally wrong things... T_T...........
but for other question boleh la jawab jugak.... coz at least i could write some facts not merapu jek...
mcq.. almost 50% are more or less the same as 3rd IA question... tp tu pun x tahu btul ke x.. dh sape suruh x check jawapan hari tu...
but overall alhamdulillah....
all the best for the next paper...!

p/s: tapi sebenarnya kan  asyik trigt2 

jek soalan yg dh tersalah jwb td tuh..

when i'm too over excited exercise....~

hahaha.... ntah la kenape hari ni.. ttiba rajin pulak nak exercise... yg best nyer dh sampai terlebih2....

pagi2 lepas subuh.... dh buat sit-up ( guna abs slimmer, ok) 50 kali..... waaaahhh!!! byknyer... tp rs mcm ok jek pagi td....

pastu petang bleh plak nak pegi gym........... main mcm2... misi utama nak berlari. dh lame sgt miss my jogging routine, gara2 mcm sebab, temasuklah masalah penat & malas....... duk la kat gym tu 1 jam.... habis main2 sume bnda trus rase pening...

hmm... adekah dh terlebih2 sgt exercise hari ni....?? mungkinkah badan sgt terkejut... 

skrg ni rase dh x larat... pening2.... yg bestnyer my abdomen rase mcm spasm la pulak.. adoi, pagi td mcm ok jek.... lambat plak side effect dtg.............

sdg cuba utk BERTAHAN....

hahaha... xde kena mengena pun dgn video... sbb tajuk BERTAHAN, so saje nak letak..

ok, nak smbung study...=)

it is 2am already....~

wow... it's 2am... x tido lagi ni. hmm, tgk la esok pagi kang merangkak2 nak bangun subuh.... ni sume gara-gara presentation medicine la.. tajuk mmg nak best sgt la kan "MITRAL REGURGITATION".... haaa, amek!!

yg part paling bestnyer ialah laptop baru ni masih belum lagi install power point. so, td brusaha la pi umah bf saya nak amek cd utk install. pastu dah sampai umah nak install plak x leh.... adoi!!! mmg parah.. last2 trpaksa pinjam lapotp housemate..... trima kasih la ninot.. 

tp presentation x siap lagi ni.... hari jumaat ni nak kena present... esok kena install jugak kat laptop ni... 

itulah, hari tu org kedai offer surh beli microsoft office skali time beli laptop jual mahal... haaa!! kan skrg dah padan muka....

oklah, mahu tido....nyteeeeeeeeezzzzzzzz!!!

p/s: jumaat ni nak kena present ophtal & medicine.... bawalah ia dalam mimpi..........lol

updates........

selamat menyambut tahun baru........... 1432 hijrah
semoga kehidupan seharian kita dalam tahun baru ini lebih baik dr tahun yg sebelumnya...

actually, i have put new things on my blog....... there you can see on the right side of yours, LABELS...
haha.. suddenly rajin pulak nak letak labels since i've found out something new to add on my posts.....=)

ok, now let's see the lists:

• BEST WISHES - this is for any wishes birthday ke, tahun baru ke, good luck ke & ape lagilah wish..
• I'M IN LOVE - this is specifically for kisah cinta aku & dia.........huhu
• LIFE - any updates... anything that happen to me...
• MY HEART SAYS - hmmmmmmm, this is the very most favourite post la........ ini lah masanyer utk  luahkan perasaan yg terpendam di lubuk sanubari.........^__^
• PUITIS - poems, beautiful words, quotes...
• REMINDERS - post yg ade peringatan utk diri..... sume2 yg ke arah kebaikan..
• SONGS - lagu2 or videos yg nak dikongsikan bersama

and presenting the most new thing..............

• RECIPES - yeah....... at last i've found out my interest....... i love baking. so i will share the recipes here... kpd sume yg slalu brtanyakan resepi bleh la tgk kat sini......hihi

oklah, going to update the 1st recipe in the next post........
tata........=)

ill..... T_T

i think i'm physically & mentally ill............ =(

inilah dugaan....

hmm.... juz coming back from delhi, rajasthan, agra trip.... feeling so tired. dgn kisah flight delay dekat 3 jam, sampai umah dlm kul 2am lebih. mmg amat memenatkan.. pastu bgn pagi esoknyer kena siapkan document utk extent Residential Permit yg bakal berakhir bbrapa hari saja lagi.. alhamdulillah, dh settle dah..

actually, tgh rase tnsion skrg ni... mcm2 hal pulak nak jadi after trip nih.. 1st of all my hp ni ttiba jek nak rosak, tp bukan lah rosak sampai x leh nak guna lngsung, but juz the mic is not functioning... so, susahla kalo nak buat call.. org lain xleh nak dgr ape kite nak ckp.. hp ni dah 3 tahun dh pakai. my father bought for me b4 nak fly to india. so mmg sayang la nak tukar hp baru. mmg la ade trase jugak nak beli baru tp mcm xkan jek.. sbb plan nak guna sampai habis study. so, hopefully bleh repair & bleh digunakan semula...

then, my laptop plak ttiba td off secara ttiba.... pastu nak on balik kat screen kuar rosak2... wah!! mmg dh cuak giler td. yelah, dh la baru balik trip mestila nak guna laptop. baru igt nak transfer gambar2, nak update info, nak skype dgn si dia...& byk lagilah... hmm, nak format cepat2la laptop ni. hope i could fine someone that could help me with this problem.

hmm.... nampaknya, tahap kesabaran ku sdg diuji...

satu lagi jugak yg merunsingkan fikiran ni adalah keadaan muka ku yg burn dgn gaya yg pelik...
half above cerah, half below gelap.. mmg dh mcm ape dah. rase mcm nak tutup jek muka ni, sbb sume pandang pelik jek. dhla esok nak kena gi kelas. habis nak kena jumpe sume org and the thing is yg aku xsuka is nak dgr comment org psl ni..coz i'll be upset nnti.. rsnyer aku mmg x suka org comment psl anything about my body kot...

oklah, penat dh merungut, membebel..
later, maybe i'll update about the trip... ( kalo rajin la)
bye2..

membebel sorg diri.....~~

today is saturday and i'll be having theory exam for 1st Internal Assessment starting from Monday.... and the thing is my study progress is very very very lesssssssssssssssss...... aaaaahh....!!!!!!!!!! what should i do??? nk study mmg sgtlah xde mood.. nak kate dh study dr awal pun x jugak. bile dh sampai time mcm ni pun x study jugak... ape nak jadi??
APA NAK JADI..
APA NAK JADI..
SAMPAI SKRG X KAHWIN LAGI..
APA NAK JADI....
( eh, silap... ttiba plak trkuar lagu tu =P)

last nite dh la tido dgn lamenyer..... ada la dlm lebih kurg 9 jam.... hahaha.... then, i woke up this morning punyelah awal, siap mandi pagi2 dgn cuaca yg sejuk and without heater... owh, mmg sgtlah mencabar..... kononnyer mandi pagi2, bleh la stat study awal skit... but at last still noon mcm hampeh... habuk pun xde.... =.=
lain pulak hasilnyer.... dr pagi td duk mengadap keyboard comel nirna punyer and duk cari chord lagu.... ahhhhh, giler btul. time kritikal gini la pulak duk best main... ^_^
oklah, nak berhenti membebel..... dhla tgh lapar.......
nak gi sambung aktiviti seterusnyer....hehe=)

helping hands...

dalam kite brsuka-ria, bergelak ketawa dgn kemewahan dan kesenangan duniawi, kita x sedar ade insan yg dalam kedukaan dan kesusahan....
ingin ku kongsikan kisah seorg pelajar yg kini dalam kesusahan.....
moga2 para pembaca sekalian dpt membantu dia....
hulurkanlah bantuan, ringakan beban....

ikuti kisahnya di sini: hasbi needs help

USIA.... UMUR... AGE...

huhu...

suasana ketika brshopping...

DULU-DULU....

kalo dulu pegi shopping, x kisah la kat kedai runcit ke, shoppping mall, ke etc mesti pegi dgn parents la kan.. ke hulu-hilir berkepit jek la. nak ape ckp jek la. tp xde la sume pon dpt kan. before nak beli barang2 tu mesti la tgk2 dulu... window shopping la katakan... hahaha.. pastu mesti la org kedai tu tanya2, nak layan customer la katakan. mase dulu2 mesti dieorg tanye mcm ni,

"Adik, nak beli ape?"

"Adik suka yg mcm mane eh??"

"Yang ni ade percuma brg permainan... nak x?"

Hahaha... Mase tu kite mesti la excited... rase cm sume pon nak kan..

Actually yg nak ditegaskan kat sini ialah... mase dulu2 org panggil kite ADIK....

Ikuti kisah selanjutnya..

SEKARANG....

Hmm... Bila dh meningkat dewasa ni, kdg2 shopping dgn parents, kdg2 x.. Tapi bile gi shopping bleh trlupa la pulak yg diri ni sebenarnya dh masuk peringkat dewasa...huhu... Sebabnye, bile gi shopping, tgh survey2 brg, ttiba ade suara:

"Kak, nak cari ape ye?"

"Kak, bleh saya tolong?"

Mase tu kan rase mcm bengang pon ade... sbb tgk org tu mcm lagi tua dr kite.. hahaha... lawak la. Nasib baik la trigt yg aku ni dh lame dh tinggalkan alam persekolahan. So title ADIK tu mmg dh lame hilang kot.. Ni la akibatnye bila x sedar diri yg diri tu dh dewasa..

Skrg ni barulah aku faham kenapa org suka rahsiakan umur masing2...huhu..

p/s: mahu rasa muda sentiasa..=)

19th March...

rase mcm x percaya...
rase nk pengsan...
speechless....
hope everyhing will be fine........=)

last day......

today is the last day i'm gonna spent my time at home. diz afternoon dh nk pergi kl dah although flight tomorrow nite atas sbb2 yg x dpt dielakkan... huhu... hmm, anyway cuti kali ni xde pegi ke mana sgt pun.. byk spent masa kat rumah jek. i dont have my own car to move around, so have to wait for my parents jek la kalo nk kuar pun. pegi beraya pun xde sgt. rase2nye thn ni jumlah duit raya adalah yg plg sikit...hahaha=p
ni tgh risau dgn berat beg yg rasenye mcm berat jugak...takut overweight pula.. sume2 beg pun berat, dh x tau mcm mane nk alter. hrp2 bleh la tumpang2 org lain yg x bawa ape2 sgt.
dh nk start new term ni.... mcm berdebar pula. mcm2 plan dh bermain di fikiran. yelah, kalo bleh x nak dh main2. brsyukur sgt sbb pass sume paper for the 2nd IA hari tu... kalo nk difikirkan blk persediaan yg x sberapa b4 that, mmg dh pasrah dh kalo ade yg fail.. but after this xleh dh nk study suka2. kena focus and be serious. nk kena study smula from the 1st chapter... mase kat m'sia ni byk situasi yg buat aku sedar, yg my style of study slama ni wont make me to be a doctor... i couldnt even make a diagnosis with a confidence based on the symptoms.. hmm, mcm mane tu... ishhh, risaunyer.
hmm, oklah. got to go....bye, salam.

"anybody can be a medical student, but not anybody can be a doctor"

kenapa?????

kenapa sejak akhir-akhir ini aku asyik rase malas jek nk blaja??? asyik rase xde smangat utk blaja.. bile stat bukak buku jek... bace kejap jek... dh dok pikir bnda lain...
cmne ni.... x leh nk concentrate langsung............
isshh!!!!! kadang tu rase trtekan jugak..
yelah, mane x trtrekannya....
mcm2 bnde ade next week
hari selasa ade pharmac seminar
hari khamis ade test microb
hari jumaat n sabtu ade test for clinical posting TB and chest...
and......
truly speaking...
x brsedia langsung utk sumenye...
nk jwb ape ntah..

pening...pening....pening
rase2 nya lah kan...
i need vacation...
yelah, ari tu cuti mcm x cuti sbb kena study utk 1st IA...
then, after exam trus stat kelas...
sumenye mcm dh x trkejar dh skrg ni...
kelam kabut...
byk sgt bnde dh yg x trcover utk dibace...
stakat tulis jek dlm planner tp x trbace2 jugak...
mmg lah sgt x btul skrg...
sbb rase dh ketinggalan yg teramat sgt...

aishh....
what should i do????????