Being an observer.........

Me as the observer always make me to think and questions myself about many things... Why there are people who are always being loved with everybody.....? Why things around them went right all the time...? Why they are so happy with their life? Seems like everyone that surrounds them will support them in everything that they do...... Why everyone likes them?

Then, i will start to compare myself with them.... It is not like i am not satisfied with my life but i am jealous with those people.... Aahhh.... Am i not kind enough? Am i not good enough? Am i rude? I really want to know what actually people think of me.... Honestly...

Being an observer obviously makes me fell jealous, sad, angry, worried and...........also being hurt. But i cant stop doing that....

suatu kisah tentang "lagu untukmu"

Artist: Meet Uncle Hussain
Title: Lagu Untukmu
Tiada bintang
Dapat menerangkan hati yang telah dicelah
Bagaiku lumpuh tak mampu berdiri
Aku tetap begini
Takkan berubah kerna aku tetap aku
Dan lalu rindumu bukanlah aku*
Guna hati, akal dan fikiranmu
Berbeza
Kau dan juga aku
Dua hati yang tak mungkin bersatuApakah aku
Hanya boneka yang sering engkau mainkan
Yang dikawal oleh jari-jarimu
Ku punya hati dan perasaan
Pernahkah engkau fikirkan
Cukup cukuplah oh cukuplah(ulang *)Tak faham tak tahan
Sabarku tak tertahan
Melayan sikapmu perawan
Berbeza-berbeza
Kau dan aku berbeza
Kita memang tak serupa
Bebaskan bebaskan
Ku ingin dilepaskan
Kita tidak sehaluan
Cukuplah sudahlah
Sampai di sini saja
Hubungan kita berdua
Hoa…hoa….hoa…..(ulang *)Aku pernah dgr lagu ni about 1thn lebih yg lalu coz someone ask me to listen to this song... Trnyate mase tu aku x prnh cuba nk phm ape pun yg ingin die smpaikan... xprnh cuba nk dgr btul2 lirik lagu ni.. Suddenly this song becomes so popular now among sume org and i had a chance to listen to this song so many times.. Baru skrg aku dpt phm btul2 lirik lagu tu and lagu tu mmg khas ditujukn utk aku... That is one of the bad side of me... i will juz ignore the things that is not important to me and sometimes i never care what others feel...I believe that when we gain something that we really wants, we tend to forget what we actually need. We tend to decide something emotionally but not rationally... Am i regret for all the decisions that i have made?? I dont know.. Maybe yes, and maybe not.. What i know now, i cannot change what's in the past...All i want is happiness... But what i know is, i tend to make mistakes and let the happiness fade away... What should i do?? Dulu ade kwn pernah pesan, jgnlah ulang kesilapan yg pernah kite buat dulu and jgnlah pentingkan diri sndiri... Tp mcm mane kalo kite buat lg kesilapan yg same?? Anyone can explain that...???

just say it....!!!

This is all out of sudden... I've never ever thought that i would have my own blog.. But i thought that this might be good for me... As all this while, i had been gone through lots of problems and lots of things... Things around me has shown lots of changes and i need strength to adapt to this new world...
I still remember the day i imagine what is going to be when i am in India... And i never thought of things going to be like this.... And i realized that people do change... I think i have change a lot and i end up not knowing myself...
"Melodies of Sapphire" would be the 'melodies of me', and i hope that i would find myself again in this new world with the help of God, friends, family and anybody....