something is just not right...

hmm... i dont feel so good. it makes me wonder why is it so..
have i done anything wrong? have i hurt somebody?
i don't like this sort of feeling.

coconut pandan cake & american chocolate cake

this is my first post for recipes.... amek kau, dua resepi trus bagi... haha
kononnyer mcm excited la.. actually, last nite ade makan2 dgn geng IMSA... so, saya telah ditugaskan utk mmbuat kek. yeay, suka!! excited trlebih la pulak.. at first, rs mcm nak buat 1 jek... tp yelah, nak buat mcm mane dh mmg suka baking, trus terbuat 2 biji...
1st, coconut pandan cake. ni 2nd time buat...sume kata sedap, they like the textures.. lain drpd yang lain...
2nd, american chocolate cake.....resepi ni 1st time try, slalu gune resepi lain kalo buat choc cake. x tau nape nameneyer begituh.... dh mmg amek resepi name begitu... yg ni kek special skit... siap ade topping bagai... kononyer buat utk ahli IMSA yg sambut birthday la..hihi. mula2 tu nak buat tulis2 happy birthday kat atas kek tu.... tp sbb ade problem skit time nak buat topping trus x jadi... so, dpt la hias skit2....

COCONUT PANDAN CAKE

recipe taken from: YUMMYLICIOUS


Bahan-bahan:
1 1/2 to 1 3/4 cup castor sugar
4 medium large eggs
2 cups all purpose flour
1 1/2 teaspoon baking powder
1/2 teaspoon of salt
1 teaspoon vanilla essence
1 teaspoon pandan essence
1/2 teaspoon green food colouring
1 box santan (equivalent to 1 cup of thick santan)
1 tablespoon vegetable oil

Method
1. Beat eggs and sugar on high speed untill frothy and creamy.
2. Add in the essences and the food colouring and mix well.
3. Sift flour, baking powder and salt into the egg mixture and beat on medium speed.
4. Pour in half of the santan content into the mixture and blend well.
5. Alternate this step with the dry and wet ingredients, finishing off with the dry ingredients.
6. Beat till smooth.
7. Lastly, fold in the vegetable oil in the batter.
8. Pour the batter into loaf tins or you can use an eight inch cake tin.
9. Bake in 180 degrees celcius for 40 minutes or untill the skewer comes out clean.

looks beautiful right!!! rase mmg sedap...lembut pulak tuh

AMERICAN CHOCOLATE CAKE

recipe taken from: YUMMYLICIOUS

Ingredients
2 cups flour*
2 cups granulated sugar - guna castor sugar
3/4 cups cocoa*
2 tsp baking powder*
2 tsp baking soda*
2 eggs
1 cup of milk (fresh)
1 cup of corn oil (this one coz i could't find corn oil, i change it to 1 cup of melted butter)
1 tsp vanilla essence
1/2 tsp salt & 1 tsp Nescafe, added to 1 cup of hot water

Methods:

1. Ayak bahan * sekaligus
2. Pukul sekejap semua bahan kecuali bahan diayak*, susu dan air.
3. Masukkan bahan yg diayak, air dan susu, kacau kejap dgn senduk kayu.
4. Bakar dgn preheat oven 170 darjah celcius selama 45 min.(saya bakar selama 1 jam)

ni lah rupenyer sebelum letak topping...... merekah skit kat atas tu

tadaa!!! there you goes... after letak topping, nampak cun jek..

Hmm......menarik kan resepi2 ni.......

kepada sesiapa yg berminat boleh la cuba.........hehe=)

updates........

selamat menyambut tahun baru........... 1432 hijrah
semoga kehidupan seharian kita dalam tahun baru ini lebih baik dr tahun yg sebelumnya...

actually, i have put new things on my blog....... there you can see on the right side of yours, LABELS...
haha.. suddenly rajin pulak nak letak labels since i've found out something new to add on my posts.....=)

ok, now let's see the lists:

• BEST WISHES - this is for any wishes birthday ke, tahun baru ke, good luck ke & ape lagilah wish..
• I'M IN LOVE - this is specifically for kisah cinta aku & dia.........huhu
• LIFE - any updates... anything that happen to me...
• MY HEART SAYS - hmmmmmmm, this is the very most favourite post la........ ini lah masanyer utk  luahkan perasaan yg terpendam di lubuk sanubari.........^__^
• PUITIS - poems, beautiful words, quotes...
• REMINDERS - post yg ade peringatan utk diri..... sume2 yg ke arah kebaikan..
• SONGS - lagu2 or videos yg nak dikongsikan bersama

and presenting the most new thing..............

• RECIPES - yeah....... at last i've found out my interest....... i love baking. so i will share the recipes here... kpd sume yg slalu brtanyakan resepi bleh la tgk kat sini......hihi

oklah, going to update the 1st recipe in the next post........
tata........=)

how do....

how do i know.....
if you don't show...

how do i feel...
if you don't deal....

how do i miss...
if you don't wish...

how do i care...
if you don't dare...

how do i love...
if you don't.....

disappointed...

argghhh...!!! rs cm x puas hati........
this whole things really troublesome.. alwayzzzzz..........
why can't everything juz go on smoothly??
this whole thing are lacking of....
communication, management...
and will make others in trouble...
please also inform me...
you just give some work and then i didn't get any follow up..
what the hell is that...
i know i'm not good enough to handle all these things...
but at least i'll try my best..
it would be easier if i had handle that from the beginning...
not in the middle of it......

meletup...boom... kabom!!

ok, mmg meletup kabooommm!!! boomm!!! rs mcm nak main mercun pun ade.......lol
ok, mmg dh buang tebiat.... dh x betul.....

kata-kata utk hari ini dan selama-lamanya:
" hak milik bersama, tanggungjawab bersama...... sekian, terima kasih"

p/s: sangat penat..........................(=.=)"
pasni nak kena study medicine plak

kisah kami...........=)

heeeeee.... sejak akhir2 ni IMS kecoh dgn citer kawen jek. mula2 tu excited jugak, tp lame2 penat jugak nak dgr dah, tension pun ade ( dgn kate lain sbnrnye, jealous hahahah!!)..... anyway, congratz la utk dieorg sume. xsabar nak gi majlis kawen dieorg ni. all will be on next april.....weeee!!! konvoi beramai2....=p

time2 mcm ni mmg dh stat la nak berangan2.... owh angan2 saje la, sbb kawen time blaja ni is a NO NO NO la..... insyaAllah, kalo ade rezeki, abis2 jek final year nak trus kawen.. hahaha..(oopps, over la pulak)

entry kali ni mmg dgn nada bersahaja... mengisi masa lapang yg sbnarnya x lapang pon.. dh macam org gile pon ade, dari td dok senyum sorg2...kuikuikui..;p ni sume gara2 tringat kat die... wahaha

mengimbau kembali kenangan masa mula2 berkawan. mcm mane ktorg bleh rapat dan last end up to be in a relationship and now planning to get into the next step. HE IS SO SPECIAL!!

bila igt2 balik time first conversation tu mcm kelakar pun ade. mula2 tu nak mintak lagu jek kat die. all this happen on facebook chat room... haaaaa, percayalah!!! dr situlah sumenyer brmula.. tp last2 x dpt pun lagu tu dr die.....huhu. and lain plak jdnyer..

pastu ktorg pun kawan2... help each other... slalu spend time together, or x pun slalu contact each other. at that time i had been questioning myself... am i starting liking him?? wahaha.. mmg pening jugak time tu. x tau nak buat pe sbnrnyer. bile hati dh mula suka, takutla nnti bertepuk sblh tangan pulak. buat malu jek kang.................

kisah kami mmg pelik la... and, yg paling x tahannyer bleh plak declare couple time final exam 2nd year. mmg bagus btul la. tu pun through facebook jugak. so, mmg besar impaknyer fb ni kpd hubungan kami (hahah... ayat x bleh blah)............ and now it has been 7 months....=)
i'm so grateful of getting to know him..
i'm so happy that he is a part of my life...

oklah, cukup la stakat itu sahaja.......
till then, bye!!

p/s: x trase lg nak update psl trip....... tgh angau;)

ill..... T_T

i think i'm physically & mentally ill............ =(

penuh harapan...

dengan penuh harapan...
aku menanti..
aku menunggu...

dengan penuh yakin...
aku tetap setia menanti..
aku tetap setia menunggu....

mengharapkan keajaiban itu wujud..

dari gelapnya langit malam...
hingga terbitnya fajar...
kala mentari tegak di langit....
dan sampai ke akhirnya...

aku kan terus menanti....
moga ia menjadi nyata...

inilah dugaan....

hmm.... juz coming back from delhi, rajasthan, agra trip.... feeling so tired. dgn kisah flight delay dekat 3 jam, sampai umah dlm kul 2am lebih. mmg amat memenatkan.. pastu bgn pagi esoknyer kena siapkan document utk extent Residential Permit yg bakal berakhir bbrapa hari saja lagi.. alhamdulillah, dh settle dah..

actually, tgh rase tnsion skrg ni... mcm2 hal pulak nak jadi after trip nih.. 1st of all my hp ni ttiba jek nak rosak, tp bukan lah rosak sampai x leh nak guna lngsung, but juz the mic is not functioning... so, susahla kalo nak buat call.. org lain xleh nak dgr ape kite nak ckp.. hp ni dah 3 tahun dh pakai. my father bought for me b4 nak fly to india. so mmg sayang la nak tukar hp baru. mmg la ade trase jugak nak beli baru tp mcm xkan jek.. sbb plan nak guna sampai habis study. so, hopefully bleh repair & bleh digunakan semula...

then, my laptop plak ttiba td off secara ttiba.... pastu nak on balik kat screen kuar rosak2... wah!! mmg dh cuak giler td. yelah, dh la baru balik trip mestila nak guna laptop. baru igt nak transfer gambar2, nak update info, nak skype dgn si dia...& byk lagilah... hmm, nak format cepat2la laptop ni. hope i could fine someone that could help me with this problem.

hmm.... nampaknya, tahap kesabaran ku sdg diuji...

satu lagi jugak yg merunsingkan fikiran ni adalah keadaan muka ku yg burn dgn gaya yg pelik...
half above cerah, half below gelap.. mmg dh mcm ape dah. rase mcm nak tutup jek muka ni, sbb sume pandang pelik jek. dhla esok nak kena gi kelas. habis nak kena jumpe sume org and the thing is yg aku xsuka is nak dgr comment org psl ni..coz i'll be upset nnti.. rsnyer aku mmg x suka org comment psl anything about my body kot...

oklah, penat dh merungut, membebel..
later, maybe i'll update about the trip... ( kalo rajin la)
bye2..

saje-saje...hihi =p

huhu.......... inilah hasilnyer....
sejak ditinggalkan keseorangan di sini, kerana housemate sume sudah pulang ke tanah air, aku jadi x keruan and always thinking of doing something selain drpd makan & tido...
disebabkan xleh kuar umah juger sbb ade verdict ape2 ntah, so kena la stay saje di rumah...

last nite aku ditemankan oleh org trsayang (die pon x balik m'sia, stay kat sini jek). ktorg skype...skype.. skype...huhu... stelah sekian lamenyer x video skype (mcm la x jumpe jek).... i feel like happy... happy..happy...!!! yelah, lame sudah x dgr die nyanyi sambil main gitar scara live...huhu... sambil2 tu die duk cari citer korea & aku pulak buat ART WORK...(tu2 yg gambar kat atas tu la....hahaha), nampak sgt mmg dh xde keje kan...

sebenarnyer, ade jek kerja yg nak kena buat.... patutnyer dh kena stat packing2 la utk holiday, nak jalan2 selama seminggu... byk tempat nak pegi nih.... tp satu pe pon x stat lg.. beg pun x kuarkan lagi, nak kena pilih baju lg, tudung nak matching lg.. yelah, nak kena la cantik2... nak pegi jalan2 kan... kena plan dr awal, nak pakai baju pe.. lgpun bukan leh nak bawak baju byk2...
hmm, jap lg bleh la stat packing2....

p/s: ni kisah short distance relationship tp
mcm long distance relationship plak...
haha....

when you.... i will....

when you play guitar, i will play the piano...

when you drive the car, i will watch for the direction...

when you walk on a difficult path, i will hold your hands so that you won't fall....

when you are alone, i will accompany you...

when you are left behind, i will wait for you...

when you are crying, i will wipe your tears...

i may not a perfect person for you, but i just wanna be with you...

coz i love you...

mix up

• people wont appreciate things that they have till they lose it.....

• sometimes people don't know how to express things in the right way, and they end up hurting others....

• people will try to make everything looks perfect, but at last end up looking terrible...

• sometimes people are not allowed to say everything what they want and what they think, coz not everyone could accept it....

• everyone in this world is different, everyone is special...

• never ever look down to other person, coz we don't know what will come in the future....

• every single person in this world has feelings, DONT FORGET THAT...

tanggungjawab....

kerna itu satu tanggungjawab,

lalu aku tidak boleh melepas tangan sahaja...

aku telah berusaha yang termampu...

kuatkanlah aku Ya Allah...

tingkatkanlah kesabaran di hati ini...

p/s: Ramadhan dtg lagi..................................................
manusia berperang dgn hawa nafsunya sndiri..

we may not spend much time together but......

we may not spend much time together but it doesn't mean that we do not love each other....

we may rarely talk but it doesn't mean that we do not miss each other...

people can make assumptions, let them be...
coz we can't control them...

there are things that people don't know....
something good will come soon... InsyaAllah...

i'm not that strong...~

seeing those "magic words" will remind me of the past...

it reminds me of something that i really want to forget.

it reminds me of the stain that i really want to erase.....
ahhh... i became frozen & scared when i see those words...
frankly speaking, i'm not that strong.
i'm not a robot. i do have feelings...
i juz want everything will be juz fine....
but i know, the future is uncertain & unpredictable....

p/s: Ya Allah, berikanlah petunjuk dan hidayahMu...

lepas geram sebentar..

haishhh....
nak marah x boleh... tp mmg geram tu ade la jugak....

why you always prefer to make your life become complicated...???

it seems that you like to get into trouble just due to unreasonable thing..

why can't you just follow the simple rules???

why other people can do it but you can't???

i'm not asking you to do extravaganza thing...

please... i'm begging you...~~
please don't get into trouble anymore...
please don't be so selfish..
please think also about your loved ones....
please think about your future.....

p/s: i'm so jealous with them...~~

membebel sorg diri.....~~

today is saturday and i'll be having theory exam for 1st Internal Assessment starting from Monday.... and the thing is my study progress is very very very lesssssssssssssssss...... aaaaahh....!!!!!!!!!! what should i do??? nk study mmg sgtlah xde mood.. nak kate dh study dr awal pun x jugak. bile dh sampai time mcm ni pun x study jugak... ape nak jadi??
APA NAK JADI..
APA NAK JADI..
SAMPAI SKRG X KAHWIN LAGI..
APA NAK JADI....
( eh, silap... ttiba plak trkuar lagu tu =P)

last nite dh la tido dgn lamenyer..... ada la dlm lebih kurg 9 jam.... hahaha.... then, i woke up this morning punyelah awal, siap mandi pagi2 dgn cuaca yg sejuk and without heater... owh, mmg sgtlah mencabar..... kononnyer mandi pagi2, bleh la stat study awal skit... but at last still noon mcm hampeh... habuk pun xde.... =.=
lain pulak hasilnyer.... dr pagi td duk mengadap keyboard comel nirna punyer and duk cari chord lagu.... ahhhhh, giler btul. time kritikal gini la pulak duk best main... ^_^
oklah, nak berhenti membebel..... dhla tgh lapar.......
nak gi sambung aktiviti seterusnyer....hehe=)

hidup ini ibarat roda...

hidup ini ibarat roda..

terkadang kita di atas, terkadang kita di bawah..

ada masanya kita ketawa, ada masanya kita menangis...

ade ketika kita senang, ade ketika kita susah...

inilah kehidupan...

penuh pancaroba, onak dan duri...

helping hands...

dalam kite brsuka-ria, bergelak ketawa dgn kemewahan dan kesenangan duniawi, kita x sedar ade insan yg dalam kedukaan dan kesusahan....
ingin ku kongsikan kisah seorg pelajar yg kini dalam kesusahan.....
moga2 para pembaca sekalian dpt membantu dia....
hulurkanlah bantuan, ringakan beban....

ikuti kisahnya di sini: hasbi needs help

USIA.... UMUR... AGE...

huhu...

suasana ketika brshopping...

DULU-DULU....

kalo dulu pegi shopping, x kisah la kat kedai runcit ke, shoppping mall, ke etc mesti pegi dgn parents la kan.. ke hulu-hilir berkepit jek la. nak ape ckp jek la. tp xde la sume pon dpt kan. before nak beli barang2 tu mesti la tgk2 dulu... window shopping la katakan... hahaha.. pastu mesti la org kedai tu tanya2, nak layan customer la katakan. mase dulu2 mesti dieorg tanye mcm ni,

"Adik, nak beli ape?"

"Adik suka yg mcm mane eh??"

"Yang ni ade percuma brg permainan... nak x?"

Hahaha... Mase tu kite mesti la excited... rase cm sume pon nak kan..

Actually yg nak ditegaskan kat sini ialah... mase dulu2 org panggil kite ADIK....

Ikuti kisah selanjutnya..

SEKARANG....

Hmm... Bila dh meningkat dewasa ni, kdg2 shopping dgn parents, kdg2 x.. Tapi bile gi shopping bleh trlupa la pulak yg diri ni sebenarnya dh masuk peringkat dewasa...huhu... Sebabnye, bile gi shopping, tgh survey2 brg, ttiba ade suara:

"Kak, nak cari ape ye?"

"Kak, bleh saya tolong?"

Mase tu kan rase mcm bengang pon ade... sbb tgk org tu mcm lagi tua dr kite.. hahaha... lawak la. Nasib baik la trigt yg aku ni dh lame dh tinggalkan alam persekolahan. So title ADIK tu mmg dh lame hilang kot.. Ni la akibatnye bila x sedar diri yg diri tu dh dewasa..

Skrg ni barulah aku faham kenapa org suka rahsiakan umur masing2...huhu..

p/s: mahu rasa muda sentiasa..=)

19th March...

rase mcm x percaya...
rase nk pengsan...
speechless....
hope everyhing will be fine........=)

sekejap ada.. sekejap xde...

sekejap ade... sekejap xde...

sekejap datang... sekejap pergi....

sekejap muncul.... sekejap hilang.....

sekejap berhenti... sekejap lari...

pelik...
ku tertanya sendiri...
dalam hati...

fall in love to easily.....~~

i fall in love too easily...
i fall in love too fast...
i fall in love too terribly hard....
for love to ever last....

it's a song... (or it's real)

tak tahu kenapa....=(

saya susah hati...
susah hati sgt..
tak tahu kenapa...

saya risau...
risaukan dia...
tak tahu kenapa...

saya menangis...
menangis secara tiba-tiba...
tak tahu kenapa...

saya.... saya...
hmm...
tak tahu kenapa...=(

saya(^_^).... kamu (>.<)

saya sayang kamu...
kamu sayang saya x?

saya rindu kamu...
kamu rindu saya x?

saya mahu kamu....
kamu mahu saya x?

=p

what i feel.....????

setelah sekian lama x update blog, ttiba hari ni trgerak hati utk menaip..hmm... selama ni just observe around others blog jek (passive blogger) hoho.... patutnya skrg ni tgh study patho for tutorial esok tp xpelah nak berehat sekejap (sekejap???? mcm lame jek) dari belajar...

anyway, lately rase x keruan jek... x tenang.... mcm2 bnda bermain dlm fikiran ni..... mcm2 perasaan yg ade kat dlm diri ni.... rase mcm nak listkan jek satu persatu...

1. marah - kat diri sendiri. sbb malas sgt lately ni.. exam dh dekat tapi belajarnya semakin brkurangan. waktu tidur pulak makin bertambah lame. hubungan dgn laptop ni lagi la dahsyat... menjadi semakin akrab hari demi hari... sampai bila la nk berterusan mcm ni... ishhh.......... ape la nak jadi...
2. rindu - rindu sgt kat family di malaysia....... rase cm nak balik skrg jugak. x nak amek exam. duk kat m'sia lagi best. lately ni smakin kerap contact family, kadang2 tu tanpa sbb ape2 pon nak call jugak.. saje jek. pastu bila dh call x tau pulak nak ckp ape (sbb dh slalu sgt call). sume bnda pun dh update... cepatlah.... nak balik. lagi satu... rindu pade ssorg yg jauh...huhu...jauh di mata tapi dekat di hati.......=) bukan di india mahupun di malaysia... tapi die di satu tempat yg jauh dr sini.........
3. keliru - hmmm............ ni mmg pelik. keliru dgn perasaan sndiri. sukar utk ditafsirkan. ishhh... nape la perasaan ni slalu berubah2. x tetap pendirian... kenape la kekeliruan ni x pernah hilang dari dulu..? amat menyusahkan + memeningkan...

nampaknya dh malas nak senaraikan lagi sume2....... sehingga bertemu lagi di masa akan dtg. nak smbg study patho.... bye2

"sangat-sangat rindu pada seseorang"

"adakah ku bertepuk sebelah tangan?"